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 Editorial by this week with The WASPS Nests Jason De Rothschild
An old BBJ teacher told me once. "losses that happen in life are just chapters in a book, not the book it self, so rest up and get well." I remember him clearly telling me right after a bad loss, during an early morning talk in his gym right after I got knock out, i felt like the whole world didnt matter and that I was going to give up on the BJJ game . Some times when I think of what he said I still get lost, I always think. I dont know? Sometimes I feel that the chapter is the main part of the book. And my vision is so blurry that I cant really see the end at this moment.
Defeat, and getting knocked out, and disappointment, and anger, and fear. I just feel like Im swimming in all of it. I just cant see it now I guess. But it feels like the things that happened are the whole story of the book to me. It makes no sense now, But I hope that somewhere in all of this there’s a reason. An answer to why. A conclusion. Or perhaps there’s a guy out there that can paint me a picture that explain why these things happen to people and I can hang it on my wall. I dont know? All I know is that nothing, not getting angry, not giving up on the game, not drugs, and not tears. Nothing. Nothing can really make something that has already happened, not happen.
And that's when I figured out that all these emotions, anger, fear, disappointment, and depression cant undo a major loss. Or make a wrong move, a right step. They cant pay the bills, or make your broken jaw go away. Or even pass a class. But we all still go through this. And I dont now why, but I dont mind it at all. I think I’ve been in this pool of emotions so much lately, that I’ve burned my self out. And I dont care. Sometimes I wish my teacher was here. That we were back in that old gym. He’d make me change my focus. He’d probably say something like “think, no focus on the positive, learn and improve”. Yup, I think thats what he would say.
And so now maybe? Now, that I think about it, I think I can differentiate the parts of the story from its whole. I think. So maybe instead of fear, and anger, and hatred, and drugs, or alcohol, I think we should remember. Yeah I know he would say something like that. Remember. Just remember. Remember summer training in the gym, or long sessions on the mat with your friends, your brothers, or soup in the morning or even early mornings sitting in an empty gym talking with your mentor, just talking. Lets think of the good things, the things that will make us smile. And stand back up, stand back up and fight again, fight for that win, that win and all the wins that are coming my way..... “Man, this book better be good Helio”.
to Helio Gracie, a BJJ master, Life teacher, and a true friend ...
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